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Murder
I’ve been abusing myself
I say I don’t deserve anymore than this
and that’s what I’ve learned to believe
there’s nothing more to me.
All that I am, is all that I hate
and everything I used to love has disappeared
it’s difficult to laugh and to smile
when I think happiness is fake.
[I murder myself with words
I believe in the lies.
Why do I trust only what hurts?
why can’t I realize
that love isn’t pain?]
I give in to the voices in my head
I’ve let them take over what I feel for myself
And soon they’re all that I hear,
and I depend on them to be there.
I realize it’s all my fault
I realize I’ve fallen this far down,
because I’ve pushed myself in this hole
and ate away at my own soul.
[I murder myself with words,
I believe in the lies.
Why do I only trust what hurts?
Why can’t I realize
that love isn’t pain?]
I’ve been abusing myself
I say I don’t deserve anymore than this
and that’s what I’ve learned to believe
there’s nothing more to me.
All that I am, is all that I hate
and everything I used to love has disappeared
it’s difficult to laugh and to smile
when I think happiness is fake.
[I murder myself with words
I believe in the lies.
Why do I trust only what hurts?
why can’t I realize
that love isn’t pain?]
I give in to the voices in my head
I’ve let them take over what I feel for myself
And soon they’re all that I hear,
and I depend on them to be there.
I realize it’s all my fault
I realize I’ve fallen this far down,
because I’ve pushed myself in this hole
and ate away at my own soul.
[I murder myself with words,
I believe in the lies.
Why do I only trust what hurts?
Why can’t I realize
that love isn’t pain?]
Literature
Heartache
Glass shatters
The pieces are scattered
Across the floor
Can you see me?
I was that glass
So fragile in your arms
And this hurts so much
Do you remember,
The way we used to feel?
You said you loved me
It seemed so simple
So perfect
It started off with a kiss
And then neither of us knew what to do
So you let me fall
You said you loved me
Made me feel wanted, special
It seemed so perfect
So right
Your touch sent shivers
Down my spine
So simple yet
Complicated
I had it all under control
It seemed so right
So great
But you let me fall
I thought I saw
A side you revealed to no one else
Something beautiful
Maybe I was
Literature
Can't you hear it?
Can't you hear it?
You were dead before the day had even begun,
but you never could have known it.
C r a c k
Broken
in seven places, they told me afterwards.
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There was a stale taste in the air
as we set out,
though at the time I wouldn't have taken any notice of it.
Those fresh leather seats seemed so…
inviting.
We both knew we were well above the limits:
all of them.
Too fast, too high and too intoxicated.
And somewhere along the way,
time stopped.
For a fleeting moment there was sile
Literature
The Rape
Death's mother was a little girl
Found hiding by the tire swing.
The nanny said her name was Pearl,
Watching the child who said nothing.
Found hiding by the tire swing,
She saw herself on that night's news.
Watching the child who said nothing,
The world focused on every bruise.
She saw herself on that night's news
As her womb came alive with a sudden start.
The world focused on every bruise.
It ignored the skip-stop of her frightened heart.
As her womb came alive with a sudden start,
She ran from the room with widened eyes.
It ignored the skip-stop of her frightened heart,
Regardless of her smaller size.
She ran from the room
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I was watching Oprah with Mindy McCready on it. She was talking about how she was abused by her boyfriend and how she wasn't that bad before she got with him, but they explained to her that nobody can get into a relationship like that unless there is already fertile ground in you. She admitted she hates herself and that she loved him more than herself. It made me realize that women all over the world murder themselves a little at a time with words and we set ourselves up for future failures by not loving ourselves.
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one learns to love,
sometimes it's in a negative fashion.
sometimes one must find someone, who will love back,
in a a new way,
someone that ,
loves you the same way you love them.
raw emotion, you have, stated it well.
sometimes it's in a negative fashion.
sometimes one must find someone, who will love back,
in a a new way,
someone that ,
loves you the same way you love them.
raw emotion, you have, stated it well.